speaking of me...

i think i've perhaps mentioned a couple of times already that i often get bored at work.

a popular phenomenon that now exists cuz of this internet craze is that whole 'googling' yourself business. of course i have participated in this activity, as i went to the trouble of putting up my own website a while back, so i am currently happy to say that despite the complete banality and popularity of my name, my website pops up quite quickly in a google search.

boredom has come to the point that i even entered my name into wikipedia. i was, of course, not expecting to find myself. rather, i was just curious who else with my name might be notable enough to have an entry. i was expecting many results.

i got three.

1. a canadian politician (born in 1938...a very popular time, indeed, for women to be given the ultra glamorous name of 'joan')

2.a novelist from the united kingdom (born in 1953)

3. me.

BUH?

at first i just saw 'singer/guitarist - canadian musician' and i shrugged, thinking there was bound to be somebody else with my name doing the same thing, even in canada.

then i noticed my birthdate. SHMUH?

there isn't anything else... if you click on the link, it's dead. i eventually found some sort of history thing, cuz wikipedia is obviously all about an online community of sorts that adds and subtracts information about subjects. i saw something about Red Zeppelin, so now it was for CERTAIN that this was me, and somebody originally entered the wrong month for my birthday, so somebody else corrected it.

yeah yeah, not so interesting to you, but i have to wonder...who is doing this? does this mean somebody else deleted my profile? who made this entry? my mother? a friend? a stalker? how did you know my birthday, stalker?

i know, it's not that big a deal, but it freaks me out a little. it's not as if i have achieved any amount of fame that would justify a wikipedia entry... there was a time when i posted a live performance of Red Zeppelin on youtube. i hated it, cuz youtube is such a snarky community that really enjoys critiquing things, and i wasn't too thrilled about the comparisons of my voice to a 'dying squirrel'...i also was a little creeped out by a couple of people who mysteriously contacted me saying they'd seen me perform at the horseshoe and they're my biggest fan. i KNOW that that's a good thing - it means i'm amassing fans, or my friends are playing a cruel joke. however, i felt very exposed, somehow. i eventually took the videos down. i know i could've just ignored the comments altogether, but i think i'd make a pretty lousy celebrity in that i couldn't help but read what they said.

jebus help me if i ever get to a point that someone like perez hilton begins MS painting cocaine and cum all over my face and giving me and my new famous boyfriend a nickname like 'hobag n' blowhag'. i will not be able to look away...but it would also probably mean that i am at least somewhat sucessful in a cool career and able to feed myself without sitting at this boring desk....so i guess i would actually accept it pretty happily. bring it on.

love,
hobag